I can walk away knowing, she knew how I truly felt
It was a long shot from the start
Had to protect what was left of my heart
So I chose to leave before things went south
It's my way to avoid emotional pain
The strain on my mind, took it's final toll
I heard all of what I've needed to hear
It's about that time I take my stroll
Try to move on to a better place
Where I can ease my soul
If you can't find love in the person you cherish
Should you stay or should you go?

-C.a.M.-

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Those Eyes

When I look into those eyes
I see an innocent child, that conceals her pain inside
She's been down this road before
A disbeliever of finding true love
She gave up sometime ago
Loneliness has become her only companion
She's known for so long
Fed up with relationships from her past
That seem to always go wrong
She blames herself, not the men that came and went
Sulking in her own misfortunes
For the broken heart she carries
So she hides, hoping to protect
The only integrity she has left

-C.a.M.-

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Resentment

Guess you never saw eye to eye
More like you went along to avoid the stress
What's the point in arguing anyway?
When there's no mutual respect
You begin to sacrifice your morals
Lose the integrity you have left
Just to make her happy
Tell me how you live with no regrets
Yet, she takes you for-granted
When all you offer is help
Resentment consumes your soul
Till you can't catch your breath
Until it spills out of your mouth
With words you thought you'd never speak
It's turned for the worse
Down hill to say the least
Now you're left with the decision
To either stay or leave in peace
This can't be love

-C.a.M.-

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Honesty

Without honesty, there is no trust.
And without trust, there is no us.

-C.a.M.-

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A Formal Apology

I can't help but think
I'm holding onto something I've already lost
Foolish to stay knowing, the price that it cost
The toll it took on my mind
Most of all my heart
It's times like these I wonder
How it all fell apart?



Thoughts of what I could've done to avoid this
To make everything right
Signs that we were doomed
But hope blurred my hindsight
Can you blame me for not wanting to lose someone, I cared so much for in my life?



So this goes out to all the women
Who meant something to me
Either I messed things up or just walked away
My apologies to those
Hope you can forgive me one day
Signed, Yours truly

-C.a.M.-

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Each Other

Two souls meet
One killing loneliness
The other, just killing time
Enjoyed each others company
Found refuge in the others mind
Shared secrets and experiences
She spilt hers, I spilt mine
A glimpse into each others' souls
Found comfort in one another
That in turn, made them whole
A friendship like no other
Guess you can say they were on a roll
Till their luck ran out
Started to argue, but what about?
As if a switch had been turned off
Both alone in the dark with thoughts of doubt
Till one day they both decided...

-C.a.M.-

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Never thought the agony of defeat, could be so sweet
Sweeter than revenge
On the edge of something deep
Hanging on by a thread
Hoping to fall on easy street
Life could be more than just money
Funny how things work themselves out
When you're broke and left with nothing

-C.a.M.-

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To My Father

We never had that bond when I was young
Guess that's why you've become estranged
Didn't share the type of things, father and sons do together
Could be the reason why I don't call you dad
But rather by your first name
We've grown apart throughout the years
Till we eventually went our separate ways
Mad at myself that it took me till now
Just to say: "I love you dad."
Unfortunately, for the both of us
It's on your burial day

-C.a.M.-

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Too Many...

Too many days have passed us by
Too many arguments that led to fights
Too many questions left unanswered
Wrongful acts that were never made right

Too many thoughts of resentment
Too many times I've made you cry
Too many excuses that were said
Words lost in the back of my mind

Too many chances that were given
Too many ways we could've tried
Too many things that came between us
An explanation could never justify why

I took...

Too many steps ahead of you
Too many memories I left behind
Too many feelings bottled up inside my soul
The love I once felt for you has died

-C.a.M.-

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Brain Vs. Heart Round 2

Brain 2nd Verse

Listen to reason, not instinct
She'll break your heart like the others
Why are you stressin' over this shit?
If she was right here in front of you, could you honestly tell her that you love her?
No response, like I thought
Mutherfucker just quit!
You're putting too much pressure on me
I'll do both of us a favor and forget she ever existed
When you learn to love through me, you avoid being a statistic
So many lives ruined through time
And for what?
A so-called love interest
Plus you're still paranoid to this day
Emotional scars from your past
Do you really want to relive those painful memories?
If not, just let these feelings pass
There's a million other women in this world
That could make you just as happy
Let her go and walk away
Before this shit ends badly
Keep your love moving, like your hustle
So you avoid getting locked down
I'll make a deal with you for the future
Focus on getting your life & money right
And when you're good and ready
We'll see what this "love" is all about
Now how's that sound?


Heart 2nd Verse

You know she's not like the others, that's why you chose to stay
You found something deep inside her soul
That made you change your ways
How many women you've known, who've done that?
Plus the patience you thought you never had
You care for the kid, why doubt it?
Just leave the pain and paranoia in the past
These emotions that you question
Let me know how it feels to be alive
You've never met a woman like her before
Don't just let a beautiful thing slide
She may front like her feelings aren't the same
But when you look into her eyes
You'll find that her love for you has never changed
You care for her, she cares for you
You make each others lives much better
If it's happiness you want, it's right in front of you man!
It was fate that brought you two together
If you could only see my expression when she's around you
Bet you've never seen a heart smile before
That emptiness you feel when she's away
That's me calling for her when she's gone
Plus her sense of humor is amazing and how it lifts your spirits
If you choose to walk away right now
You'll always wonder if what you truly felt was love, or just another verse to some lyrics...

-C.a.M.-

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Thought what we had was heaven sent
Fooled me when you packed up your things and just left
Out the door
No real good-bye
More like you just brushed me off
Maybe it wasn't your intentions
Maybe you forgot to mention, that this part of your life is over
No need to move further
Broke my heart, like you give a fuck
All you did was make me stronger
Karma comes back 360
Time heals pain and suffering
But will never make right what you did to me
Remember that!
For the next time around we're together
Just know the love I had for you drowned.

-C.a.M.-

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