Happiness Is A Warm Gun

Happiness is a warm gun
So it's always on my mind
Knowing sadness isn't too far behind
I keep it loaded at all times
Pointed at my temples, to keep my demons at bay
One motion can blow my mind open
Let the darkness escape, to usher in the light of day

-C.a.M.-

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I put myself out there
Hoping your mind would change
Instead, I was left wondering
If you ever felt the same
Since I don't know how you feel
And what I mean to you
These questions need answers
That will determine what I'll do
All I ask, is for your honesty
The rest will take care of itself
Don't worry about hurting my self-esteem
It beats this looming feeling of uncertainty
That has caused my mind to swell
Not to mention the fate, my heart awaits
Could be devastating to its health
But it's a chance I'm willing to take
If you're willing to as well...

-C.a.M.-

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There can be no compromise
When you're not willing to communicate
I've tried my best to work with you here
But in the end, failed to the same mistakes
Can't understand why you do this
In my eyes, you're taking advantage
These boundaries can only be pushed so far
Before lines are crossed and feelings damaged

-C.a.M.-

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Killing Loneliness

I'm killing loneliness, just to pass the time
To the point where I don't feel so empty inside
Try to occupy my day
Hoping one day that I'll find
A love that is true
A soul that's one of a kind
Someone to grow old with
Laugh through life till you both go blind
Share priceless moments together
Only you two can define
A woman that makes you want to become a better man
In all honesty, I'm looking for someone to be my better half
Till then, I'm killing loneliness
The best that I can

-C.a.M.-

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Thought this was worth holding on to
That's why I never left
But the more we seem to argue
The more I begin to regret
How can we call each other lovers?
When all we share is stress
We can't even communicate like adults
Without the results of being upset
Where did the happiness go?
We used to hold each other down
Now when troubles appear, you're never here
Too busy to stick around
Guess you can say we've grown apart
Chose to go our separate ways
Our bond has now been broken
To the point it can't be saved

-C.a.M.-

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Can't seem to get it together, to make everything work
When all we do is argue
Make-up, but still feel hurt
We've gone around in circles
Conversations to clear the air
Feelings left unsaid
Are we really playing fair?
When we're not completely honest
Afraid what the other may think
Like love, this is a gamble
Either continue to play or fold on instinct
I rather say too much
Than to say nothing at all
If this relationship is worth the battle
There's no way in hell, I'll withdraw

-C.a.M.-

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Two ways of doing this
Let it burn or let it fade
No difference in the two
The outcome still the same
Letting go maybe difficult
When that connection can't be maintained
It's a choice you learn to live with
When your friendship has changed
And all you do is argue
Quick to point on whose to blame
Happiness turns into resentment
Sunshine into rain
Hope to weather the storm is my heart's feeling
But my mind's telling me to evacuate

-C.a.M-

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I see you for who you truly are
And the things I thought, you never were
Blinded by love unexpectedly
You turned out to be just another girl
Can't commit to the fact you've abandoned me
When all I did was try to give you the world
So now I've moved on to a better life
No longer having to deal with your insights

Took me for-granted
When all I did was care
Now I'm gone, you miss me
Thought I'd always be there
Told your friends you played me
But who really played who?
When I'm not the one crying, over you know who
Come on girl

-C.a.M.-

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