Times running short
Make a decision on how to say it
Hard to focus at the moment
Thoughts of rejection steady playing
Pacing the room like a madman
Trying to figure out what I'm okay with
To not fully put myself out there
Be crushed like grapes, that have never been tasted
Always figured showing how you felt
Meant more than exchanging phrases
But the more time we spend together
I see my perspective changing
It shouldn't be this hard
When you know how you feel, just face it
No use in denying love
Say those words, before she's taken

-C.a.M.-

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Familiar places that my heart embraces
Have vanished in the blink of an eye
No longer friendly faces, just a bitter taste as
I take in the world outside
It's become desolate and cold
From what I now know
These roots haven't seen the light
Memories become vague, as I grow older and age
Can't remember the last time I enjoyed life...

Life learned lessons
That haven't been mentioned
Are the ones I've kept inside
The foundation of my character
The morals to every chapter
Of a biography, I have yet to write...

As I contemplate, which road to take
My minds thinking twice
The longer I wait, the more that's at stake
But I gotta be precise
For every path I choose, another option I lose
It's just the simple fact of life
However far I go, I'll always know
That it was I, who chose this life
No Regrets.

-C.a.M.-

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A Letter To C.C.

How do you tell the one you love, you can't be there for them?
That you've come to a point in your life
When your pockets are tight
And you can no longer support them
That it was okay back then
But things have changed for the worse
And it hurts, since you never expected to have to make a decision
To either put you or them first

Guess I was just being selfish
Too focused on getting my life together, for me to help it
But it was something I felt, that had to be dealt with
Long overdue, that I kept pushing a side
I needed closure for myself
To cross over and forget
How you reminded me of that someone, I left behind

Never got to apologize for breaking our ties
Some day you'll come to the understanding
Why I did, what I had to do
Just know I held on for as long as I can
But this is the end of me & you

-C.a.M.-

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Dreams of you at night
Haunt me like shadows in the distance
A moment in time, where my heart grows fond
Of a voice that sounds so distant
That place is where I left you
Never took the time to look back
Disregarded the fact I lost you
Still haven't forgiven myself for that

My pride got in the way
But at the same time, kept me sane
Bittersweet how things turned out in the end
In that respect, I'll take the blame
Should've been there for you, when you needed me most
I was caught up in the fast life of crime
But no need for further excuses, can't understand why I do this
Just know this time I've made up my mind
I want you...

-C.a.M.-

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Say Good-bye To Everything

Verse 1

It's too late for I'm sorries
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
But I can't and it kills me that what we have is on the line
We both made our share of mistakes
Things we'd take back if we could
Reality is sinking in
Don't know where to begin
Lord knows I should do it soon


Chorus

Say good-bye to everything, baby
Everything we once knew
It hurts to let it all go
But it's the best for me and you
Someday we'll both realize
That our love was never true
Good-bye to everything, baby
Everything we once knew


Verse 2

Can't keep putting this off forever
But the words don't seem to come out
Trying to set the mood for destruction
No more taking the easy route
Gotta be a man about this and handle my business
Good-byes are never pleasant
But you and I both know
Neither is this shit


Chorus

Bridge

And we can't keep pretending
That what we had is still here
Gotta move on from all this
No sense in us, just standing here
Leave it all behind, baby
Say good-bye to everything
Good-bye, good-bye


Verse 3

I've come to the conclusion
And I think you'd agree with me
The love between us left along time ago
We've both just been living a memory
Guess we missed that feeling so much
That's why we chose to stay
Gotta come to grips with reality
It's best we go our separate ways


-C.a.M.-

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We've had our differences in the past
But we always seem to get through it
All the drama and stress was just a test
To see if this friendship could face the music
Now we've come to a fork in the road
Which path shall we choose?
Should we choose together or separately?
Hoping we pick the same route
At the same time, take the chance
We lose sight of each others hands
Break the bond we've restored
To pursue other plans...

-C.a.M.-

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I Miss You

Verse 1 (Death of a Spouse)

At night I wake up lonely
No one here by my side
A voice taunts before me
Cold chills run up my spine
Soft words that are so alarming
Brought tears to my eyes
Cold sweats fall upon me
So many years have passed us by


Chorus

I miss you
Why'd you have to go and make me cry
I miss you
You are always on my mind
I miss you
So many loved ones left behind
I miss you
Never wanted to say good-bye


Verse 2 (Depression)

At times I catch myself dreaming
Reality is just too hard
When life becomes misleading
And your happiness is gone
Troubles seem to find you
No use hiding in the dark
Praying the light will guide me
To a place up in the sun


Chorus


Verse 3 (Home Sick/Solider)

I can't help to think, I've made a mistake
Of leaving it all behind
My life, friends and family
Are lingering in the dawn
As I start over from scratch
My mind and heart still attached
To that place I once knew
Hoping this road will one day, lead me back there soon...


-C.a.M.-

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